Closest people in life are not those who you always have fun with, always comfortable, who U're joking all the time with and never had any problems. Those people will always be with you changing one another...
Closest people are those who U loved and hated, had best times and worst times, had conflicts, but forgave, had this awkward silence, but overcame it. And you can allow yourself not to be ideal, allow yourself some weaknesses, cuz they accept and love you they way you are.
But the most difficult part is this phase when person from first description transforms to some phase from second description, and you're afraid...Will you overcome the challenges together or he/she will just leave? Will you be accepted the way you are and will you be able to accept the person with all pluses and minuses?

Unrequited love

So what are you supposed to say to person who says: "I love you", when you don't? Replying is silly, silence is awkward and your friendship is usually ends at that very minute. Sad.

And what to reply back when smb says: "I still love you", and you already don't? You just feel guilty being happy without him/her at that moment.

What are you telling to person who says: "I've been waiting for you", and you didn't think a minute of him/her all this time. And friendship which could happen is over, even have not started.

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Why are the most wonderful things end so soon, you want to catch each second and it passes away so quickly, it was... and now it's gone. And from the other side if problems start, they never end... Maybe it's wrong to say it in AIESEC, but: I'm tired of challenges, I want everything to go smooth and easy, cuz each second I feel like sitting on a powder keg, and want to feel like just sitting on a chair, for example, with no danger of explosion:) At least to have this feeling for a week, so my brain and body has some rest.
I have 11 hours to finish millions of things and sleep a little bit, so gotta stop writing and go handle my "power keg".

Piano

My first and forever love is piano. When I'm stressed, when things goes wrong, when I'm too excited and need to calm down, I wanna sit and touch the keyboard: my lovely black and white keys and play...hear how music fills in the air and feel that I'm creating it - this beauty. Yeap, when I play the piano, I feel like creating something beatiful. And everything what's going on around doesn't matter anymore, only music matters, only stories in Ur head matter, only harmony inside matters.
10 days to touch my keyboard and feel it again - how it is to create beauty...

Remember

A good thing to remember is somebody's got it a lot worse than we do.
So don't be sorry for yourself, don't excuse yourself, don't complain.
Just enjoy, be happy, be free, be grateful, move forward.

I'm a little bit lost right now. My MC term in Russia -this HUUGE chapter in my life with the beatiful team experience, extreme achievements and hard challenges was oficially over 2 days ago. But I'm still in Moscow, in MC flat with part of my team preparing our last project - H4TF conference, so I still feel like working and like being MCVPTM:)
And two many things will be going on with me in May: selection process next two weeks (my next year depends on that), moving home in 2 weeks (still need to manage moving my enormous amount of clothes to Kazakhstan somehow), chairing at conference in my home LC (super exciting), my Vojta coming to Moscow next week (happy happy happy), work in TMU (lots of work).
Right now I feel happy and physically exhausted, like I was keeping myself on high energy level all year long and now when U have no definite next steps, U feel lost, tired, but.... optimistic:) and need time for yourself, finally some time for yourself:)
And I want to write so many things about my MC term, each day, hour, minute which I've lived here with my team and don't know how to put it in words...
When get home will go to mountains, get fresh air and pack my experience I got, yeap I'll do it.
For now one thing to do: excellent H4TF conference for people I've worked with the whole year!

I always loved russian poetry, sometimes we took book of poems with my niece and were reading it aloud, learning by heart favourite ones. But it's not the same with poems on english, I do not enjoy it so much, as russian poetry...Wonder why, maybe cuz it's not my native language...From the other side spanish poems sound beatiful, though I do not understand a word. Maybe, it's true that some languages are made for poetry and others are not.

Do you feel like this sometimes?

"I have no idea how it feels to be utterly loved.

I am the place a person falls to when life gets hard.
I am the shoulder, the keeper of secrets, the kindness through their pain.
I am the wisdom, the knowledge, the prophet when everything goes wrong.

I have no idea how it feels to be utterly loved".

Voice

In the morning on the kitchen:
- Pasha, why do you talk to Delya EVERY single day?
- Because I want to hear her voice every day...

Isn't it sweet? :)

Voice...not ideas, words...voice

Conversations

Wanna thank my friend for yesterday conversation about "conversation" and its importance in our life. As we still didn't create anything else to communicate: we express ourselves through words, phrases, sentences. Music and art is more supportive - helping us to express feelings and emotions.

- Conversation is a dialogue, not a monologue.
- Do we really listen? Or just waiting for our turn to talk?
- Are we open to express ourselves? Or expecting person to guess about our ideas and feelings?

Think about it, if you look around you'll understand that your friends are those who you can talk to, and you don't surround yourself with people who are not likely to have interesting conversations with you, or random conversations, or funny conversations. I remember this moment in summer: when I felt that my boyfriend doesn't have empathy anymore and doesn't wanna talk to me as before, I realized: "something is wrong", which turned out to be true.
But I'm happy I have people around for fruitful conversations, for random conversations, for gossips conversations, for complaining conversations, for deep conversations, for touching conversations, for "generating ideas" conversations: who listens, who shares, who cares.

My mom is the best mother-in-law for my future husband for sure, just got sure in it one more time. My parents overall are the best, one more month and I'll be with them. Wish everybody to have kind of relations I have with my mom&dad: open, warm and loving.

Capturing moments

Best way to capture moments are music and photos. I already have my playlist of "moments", so when you listen to it, feeling you had at particular point of time, at that very "moment" you remember is coming back. Bit of a problem with photos for me, as recently I've been not lucky with cameras:) Nevertheless today put one more goal for 2010: get a camera and capture "moments", especially I would love to take photos of people around me: their different expressions on face, emotions, the way they look at you, smile, concentrate, talk - it's beatiful and these are the moments I want to remember.

Emotions

- Why does person need emotions if there's nobody to share them with?
- You can share them with me...

Think before you speak

Plans...

I think I am not good in "structured" posts:) Again random one, had lunch with my friend and we were discussing future plans. Some thoughts not to forget:

Event management, NGO or Social Entrepreneurship? (AIESEC is an option:) )
1,5 months to decide.
What is important for me to decide?
- Ability to be creative - generating new ideas
- People who love what they do, enjoy it and believe in it
- Bringing happiness and changes with what I do
- Being closer to people I love in terms of deciding on destination

Discovered for myself Regina Spektor, love her songs:

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Think positive

To the topic of AI elections (between really happy for people who got there now in the second round). Anyway, found it among my notes on IPM:

"February, 17, 2010.
...The worst part is that I don't know if I wanna be in AI. Don't know. And it's really worrying me. I doubt my motivation a loooot...And it's silly to give it up now when you're in the process already and flew all way to Tunisia for the sake of elections. And inside I hope that will not be elected, isn't it weird? Wanna talk about it, talk talk talk, but everybody says that it's cuz I'm nervous and have these thoughts. And I'm not sure if wanna do it and it's for me, if wanna work with Hugo (who most probably will be elected) and if believe in some certain initiatives which are being driven..."
It's funny coincidence how Ur thoughts come to true.
So "think positive" phrase is not without the meaning:)

Time to say good bye?

We started MC to MC Transition on Friday. Strange, how quickly you get used to bunch of people in the flat and feel quite comfortable. The one thing I understood that I can't be inside for a long time and need to go out for a walks, coffee, exhibitions to see something new and change environment. And thing which motivates me a lot is "earrings". I bought three pairs of earrings yesterday and it made my day!
And I realized that in a little bit more than a month not only "MC" chapter will be over in my life, but "Russia" chapter. Will leave this country and don't know when I'm back. 1,5 years made me definitely like at home here, but it's time to move. Here is the list of places which I still wanna visit in Moscow in the upcoming month and say good bye to Russia:

- Zoo
- Tsaritsyno
- Concert hall after Chaikovsky name
- Ostankino
- Kolomenskoye
- Ferry walk on Moscow river

One month

Tomorrow is our Annual Report 2009/10.
Tomorrow team of MC 2010/11 arrives to Moscow.
Tomorrow I'll put on my white dress.
Tomorrow our flat will be full of people: two teams, CEEDers.
Tomorrow we'll celebrate.
Tomorrow I will say: "One month of our term is left."
One month. 30 days. Moments. AIESEC. Talent Management. Transition. Reports. My team. Russia. Moscow. Decisions. Future.

Yesterday many people called and wrote asking if everything is ok, cuz of all these events in Moscow. I can imagine how many phone calls and letters people in Moscow received with words of love, as they felt danger of loosing their dear ones and felt grateful that nothing happened to them...
I was talking to one friend in the evening who wrote: "I'm so glad nothing happened to you...I can't even imagine what would I do if something happened. This shows that most of the time we take life for granted". And that's the thing: we can't imagine what would we do if something happened to our dear ones, but maybe sometimes we should think about it not to miss moments, to say words we want to say, to do things we want to do. But we're always afraid of something, afraid to be alive, to be sincere, emotional, afraid to be hurt or misunderstood.
And what if you knew that today is Ur last day? Who would you write to? Who would you talk to? What would you say?

...

Today is Monday, people are going to work after week end, not thinking that something can happen...We woke up today in got news which shocked me: there were two explosions in metro todays morning, first at around 8 am on and second in an hour on another metro station (Lubyanka and Park Kultury). More than 30 people died, many injured, even more in panic and scared. And I just had this image in my head, that these people got up, had breakfast, were complaining about bad weather and didn't wanna go to work, went to metro and...all gone. It's scary, sad and not fair.
I remember when there were explosions in Moscow in 2004 I could not imagine what people felt here. And now I'm here, having my friends here and those things are happening. I'm just happy that my MC team is ok, here with me, our CEEDers didn't have any meetings in the morning.
Still shocked and hope people who lost their dear ones will find strength and courage to go on.

Spring "wishes"

I remember once we with my cousin went to wedding salon and I was trying on wedding dresses, and felt like princess. I think it's one of two options to feel like princess: when somebody is treating you like princess or when U have this magnicifent dress on you:) Want to feel like princess again, and as nobody is treating me like princess, decided to go for second, already checked option: go to wedding salon/shop and try on many many beatiful purely white dresses.
Also wanna buy earrings: my "April" earrings, get camomiles and go to Picasso exhibition in Pushkin museum.
Wanna it to be very warm in Moscow to wear my pretty dresses, go to Tsaritsyno and have picnic there.
If anybody wanna join me for my spring "wishes", drop a line :)

Strength

Time to grow up?

I always was of opinion that life is great when it is spontaneous: no long term plans, acceptance of what’s coming on the way, random decisions, no regrets. And so far I enjoyed it, doing what I want to do and not looking back or forward. But lately I got this feeling that have no control of my life, and my plans depend on many factors, which I probably creating myself. If to look back everything I was doing, was not planned in advance, but just pumped out at some point and I grabbed the opportunity. And now I also have opportunities ahead of me, but how will it affect my future? And what do I want from my future? What are the most important things for me? I can’t answer these questions now in concrete way. I’m self aware person, know of my strengths and weaknesses, things I like and don’t, but can’t answer these simple questions in my head whether I’m moving in a right direction. Maybe I’m getting old (birthday is coming soon:) ) and my age is calling for stability, who knows :) Or maybe I'm thinking too much, and just need to chill out and let it go...

Me now

Around the globe

Yesterday again got great news: my TM girl Natasha is elected to MC Serbia!
So, some statistics:
Regina-MC UAE
Vika-Bahrain
Anya-Macedonia
Lena-Belgium
Katya-Bolgaria
Sasha-Dominican Republic
Jenya-Italy
Natasha-Serbia

And MC elections around the globe are still going on, so sure it's not the final list of Russians going abroad. Feel proud to be part of country which is providing leadership to the network.
And feel proud to see goals LCs are putting now for the next year! AIESEC Russia will definitely be in top 3 with these kind of people!
Now packing to leave to Istanbul and eager to see next generation of AIESEC :)

LC visit

I'm in Chelyabinsk. Strange people, ambitious LC.

They're different and it's amazing about them.

Dinar is cooking dinners for me, it's snowing, I have amazing meetings with OCPs, EB current and elects. And wanna come back in May for Plan It :) Because loving them more and more...

Expectations

Why do people get in conflicts and disagreements, get angry on each other, no matter if it's work, personal life or friends? I thought today that it's cuz each one of us has certain expectations towards our team or particular person. We expect people around to act according to what's on our mind, often not telling it to them, but only blaming afterwards, if it's not done the way we were expecting. But is it possible not to have expectations towards smth? Or maybe key to find common solution is setting up expectations from the beginning? 

Another thing I noticed even in myself is that often we get trapped by expectations of other people toward us. My family is expecting my to finish with AIESEC this year, move to Almaty and start working, my AIESEC friends expect that one more year I'll be around and continue working in our organization. And you try to manage these expectations, but in the end somebody will stay dissapointed with decision you took. And I myself tend to get frustrated when something doesn't match the way I was expecting, even in small things. I like this saying: "If person doesn't love you the way you expect, it does not mean he doesn't love you at all.". So at least for myself I decided to be aware of this and differences with other people, not to get angry if smth not the way you want, but trying to understand other's thoughts and come to common solution.

...

I'm sitting now at the Tunisian Airport, as our flight was cancelled and we're leaving one day later.
And I'm super inspired now and motivated as had conversation which stroke me and made me 100% sure of what I wanna do, it showed me why I was not upset at all when was not elected to AI, why I was meant to be on IPM and what will do next year and years after:)
I wanna make people experience what I experienced: world, the best people, challenges, searching and findings.
I wanna make a difference.
I wanna follow my values and bring it to the world.
I wanna AIESEC be organization how I see it: org-n which brings changes.

IPM was amazing, as every conference actually:) AI elections were tough, challenging, enjoyable, as all elections:) But the point is that I had self discovery, which never happened to me, I could face MYSELF and see who I am and what I stand for.
Right now first priority for me is AIESEC Russia, 2 months to finish our term on a high note and leave the best possible for the next team.
And for my passion and dream for the next year is to open AIESEC in new country, to give this opportunity to young people in the country to live this beatiful organization and to give opportunity to another young people to drive it and make contribution. I really mean it, and ready to turn my dream into action. Country which is on my mind now to do it is Uzbekistan. And I'm absolutely serious about it, as never in my life!
Oh, so many emotions, and thoughts, and ideas in my head right now! So will write when at home and have structure in my head:)
And one last thing: I don't know how to express grattitude to all the people who supported me throughout elections and after, I don't just appreciate it, but I'm so lucky to have these kind of people around. Thank you from all my heart!
But sometimes you need to turn to wrong direction in order to find the right one, which actually happened to me:)

Today

Last things to finish, pack and I'm ready to go...to Tunisia:)
Where will be with my wonderful russian delegation, friends who I missed so much, sun and elections, oh....elections. It seems to be so far for me now. Funny that we talk about future or past, but anyway feel only presence, and future or past is like movie which you watch, where you're hero, but it's like external view on yourself.
Ok, don't wanna continue writing my random thoughts:) Will better write from Tunisia which is coming up today.

Respect

One of the lessons I've learnt in AIESEC and in my family is - respect.

Respect is one of the values I try to follow, but it doesn't always work out, as it's difficult to always watch yourself and what you say. But at least I respect work of others, their opinion, their choice and do not judge it or react negatively. But observing people around unfortunately realize that it's not common for people, especially in Russia. Even respect for older people does not always work, at least in Moscow. It's seldom when in metro smb will give a place to an old woman, who hardly stands. Or when people listen to you attentively when U speak out. Or they respect your choice and do not judge it. For instance, I always get comments about me smoking and not even kind request not to do it, but strict orders not to smoke in front.

And it's also interconnected with tolerance. I noticed often people judge others, not looking at themselves and what they did.

I believe that life puts everything on its places, and as a bumerang everything returns to us. But one thing I know for sure, that will surround myself with people and will live in the place where there is respect for my choice and what I do.

NEC in Samara

Our last National Conference...Our legacy...And opportunity to see future leadership body of AIESEC in Russia.

Now I'm abosolutely calm for the next year and sure Russia will keep growing and will get even more ambitious.

From the other side it was conference where I was enjoying every second and following our adorable Chair's principles:

Name

Till didn't forget, decided to post, not sleeping anyway:) Many people asking about my name, what it means etc. So here it is:

"Nailya" from arabic means "Gift".

In spite of the fact that girls with this name are calm, they're tend to be often stressed. Don't like anger toward them from others. They're principled, proud and pushy. Have strong will. Can stand for themselves and others. Like to be in the center of attention.

Determined in study and work. Distrustful. Reasonable.

They hate liers and dissemblers. Like to dream. Have very good memory. Always glad to help friends, that's why often have lack of time for themselves and solving their problems. Accurate, taking care of themselves. Hard working and independent. Flexible and diplomatic in communication. Those, born in spring love children. Can become good wives.

Name Nailya is mentioned in the Koran.

Actually I also have heard somewhere that my name means "tender":) But I like "gift" interpretation more.

Ok, going back 2 work. Samara - on Sunday, my mam will be happy, she has spent there 5 years studying:)

My learning

Today I got this question:

"What is your main learning during past 3 months?"

I answered:

- It's ok to be not ideal.

- It's ok to ask for help.

- It's wonderful to learn from others.

In AIESEC we often forget that we're human beings,but not "super cool i-can-do-everything, even not sleep&eat" creatures and need sometimes simple things, but not only results, performance and numbers to achieve.

Also I've heard today "Dust in the wind" song, which is stuck in my head now and reminded me of myself falling in love for the first time. I've also learnt in the past months that falling in love again and again is wonderful, and it doesn't always mean changing your object of love: people, job, interests, but discovering smth new in it. It feels good to be in love, random, not ideal, crazy and be YOURSELF!

New position+randomness

Good news are: we have MC VP ICX Non-Corporate - lovely and smart Alfiya, who I met in May and then got to know her better when she was FACI on the conference I chaired. Really happy for her and sure she'll bring great results to Russia with her passion and patience!

Don't know if it's bad or good news, but I'm almost officially MCVPTM and Elections:) As 4 round of MC applications will be opened this week. This time I'll use everything possible and impossible to get the best people, maybe smb know some rituals to attract it? :)

Conclusion: Be strategic. Build up Leadership pipeline. Make Recruitment strategic. And think 10 steps in advance so your future successors and successors after successors have the best people on positions.

Example: I think 80% of people we recruited in our term, when I was LCVPTM got leadership positions, and last year MC, NST, EB and this year MC, EB, NST consisted of those wonderful members who we were interviewing, guiding and supporting along their way. I was not super strategic that time, but the success was probably that we delivered right message to them and build up expectations that AIESEC is leadership org-n and this is why people come here by our promo, External events and whole LC culture. Simple, but work:)

and random thoughts of last days:

- TM+Com synergy rocks

- in love with numbers, graphs and statistics. If we could do the same in our life? Like graph of our mood, or statistics of emotions, how would it look like I wonder.

- Knowledge management is super cool thing, use it people!

- Personal Effectiveness is my strength

- I've got a secret and don't wanna share it :) Feels nice to have a secret only for Urself :)

- Don't like people who talk and do not ACT.

- How does it feel like not to be elected? :)

- Will miss my MC team, when term is over....a loooooot

- Check it out: N-AI-L-ya s-A-b-I-rova:) People can find signs everywhere, if they want:)

Don't worry, be happy :)

We don't like to worry, and don't like stress, being nervous, being impatient. And we get angry when people around worry too much about us, thinking "I'm not a child anymore, I can handle everything myself".

Parents are worrying about us, when we're late, sick, sad, don't write to them, what we gonna be and where, are we happy or no. Friends worry about our life, problems, ups and downs. Boyfriends/girlfriends worry about what's gonna be with us, our relations, our mood, our thoughts...

But isn't it wonderful to have person or people you worry about and who care about you? It means you're not alone anymore, you stretched yourself beyond your own world and selfishness

and let somebody in there. So before getting mad on your parents/friends/loved ones cuz they ask too many questions and worry about each detail: think about your reaction to it. Think that these are the people who don't ask anything back, but just want to know about you and be there to support and help. And don't be afraid to show your affection to them.

And that's the topic about loneliness...We sometimes sit alone and get to the point when wanna scream that nobody understands us and we're all alone in the world. I think it's our decision to feel lonely or no. As at that moment you can pick up the phone and call to somebody and will see that there are people out there who will listen, understand and worry about you:)

I'm not lonely, even when I'm alone. Be wise in making your choice:)

Done

Application sent and accepted, feel relieved, as all the other AI candidates, I guess:)

And all of a sudden feel back to reality, to my dear AIESEC Russia and work to do here! Tomorrow is deadline for MC applications, pls pls pls be elected ICX:) I want Manana to have the best team history ever had! And I wanna hug my team, and also "strange" guy who supported me so much, Lena who was always there filling in her application and Gasho with "NASA" thing:)

Whatever happens-happens, but I know that there are people around who I love and it's the most important thing in life!

Harmony

Music indeed plays an important role in my life, as can express feelings you can't put in words.

Last days were extremely stressful due to work overload, family problems, health issues. Today I took day off and was listening to Mozart almost all the day. So thank you, Amadeus Mozart, for bringing harmony back to me:)

On most of the photos I have, I'm with food or alcohol, or both. What could it mean?

Today is one of these days when I wanna be weak, helpless, capricious. Just scream, cry, complain. And to have smb who will listen, be patient, support and say to me: "It's gonna be alright. You're the best", or "I'll take care of you, don'worry" or some other phrases, and also hug me tight, make hot tea for me (better green one) and order me to go to sleep, as tomorrow is new day and it will all pass away...

But I'm alone with cold pizza and hot tea, which is black. Not going to sleep and saying all these phrases of motivation to myself in my head. And of course I'm strong overall, so this moment of weakness will be over...tomorrow.

Week end III

Too many posts this week end. The reason is that this week end I do not talk to people alive, but only virtually and not a lot. So need to express my feelings somehow and blog is the best place to do it.

And I don't like to complain, so it's better to complain here, scream here and go mad here.

It's Sunday morning (afternoon actually, but morning for me), I'm done with General Section and moving now to Specific Questions...and video, video today. I sometimes think who came up to these applications? Idea of application itself is good, but idea to have so many questions there doesn't appeal to me:) Anyway I still enjoy it, as probably it is this time when I can think only about me, my ideas and my vision, which does not happen so often.

And random thought: I listen to Michael Jackson and sad that he passed away, cuz he was indeed talented. He left his music to us, I will leave my application :) And also I will leave my future children to the world, at least couple of thousands changed for better lives, social entreprise, book and bright memories.

Back to work:)

Week end II

Guys, if U want to apply somewhere, do not hesitate - APPLY! As this process itself, is a huge self discovery. As even when filling in application you reflect upon your previous years, what was challenging, what U've learnt, what is YOUR experience...And it brings back so many memories, and you laugh and cry at the same time. Laugh cuz it was beatiful, cry cuz you can't go back: can't go back to your LC where everything started with interns, parties, problems, people, dreams, achievements, celebrations...Can't go back to internship with again parties, problems, people, dreams, challenges, salsa, ocean...Can't go back to conferences with the same things...And you realize that all these small things, which seemed to be so unimportant that time, brought you here, where you are now.

And you also think about your future: what is important for me, what do I stand for, what do I want to bring, who is important for me, who I can stand for, who I want to bring happiness to?

Life is wonderful:) IT IS.

Week end

Hello week end, good bye rest!

Nailya, concentrate on:

- AI application

- AI application

- AI application

It must be done by Monday morning!

Popularity issue

I have many friends - girls. Of course I have guys as friends too, but here wanna talk about my girls-friends. Most of them are very pretty, smart, communicative, interesting, found themselves in life in means of career and many other positive features. But...nevertheless many are still single. I talked and talk to them, and 90% of them wanna have relations, loving boyfriend, serenades under the moon and other romantic stuff which comes along with having a boyfriend or at least guys who'll fall on them. They're searching, flirting, dressing up nice and putting on make up, but it doesn't help. They don't become popular. So recently I started asking my friends-boys why some girls are popular and always surrounded with lots of attention and others (who are not worser, but sometimes even better than the popular ones) - not. Relying on man's logic and structure, hoped to hear clear explanation which will solve the problem of loneliness once and forever. So these are the answers I got:

-girl should have "something" in her (what does "something" means nobody can explain)

-girl must be charismatic (lots of my single beauties are very charismatic though)

-girl gotta be open and sincere

-girl gotta have a "secret" (and at the same time to be open and sincere, quite tough)

-pretty or cute (doesn't help - checked)

So what's the secret of popularity? Some special energy person have or fluids he/she spreads around? Still have no clue. Probably problem is in guys who turn off the logic when selecting girls, and looking not at the right ones:) Who knows...If smb knows the secret, pls let me know and you'll have thousands of grateful people around. Or maybe it's just not the time for my friends and life is preparing them for the one and only. Hope this one is true for all of us and someday we will here this song being sung for us-beautiful and smart ladies:):

I started filling in AI application, and realized that filling in AI application! OMG! 3,5 years ago when I joined AIESEC I even could not think about it, that someday I'll be applying for AIESEC International...And now I am. AIESEC is truly beatiful organization, which make you dream big and act big, which make you not to be afraid of what you want and do it. Ok, gotta go and continue working on the app:) So wish me good luck!

P.S. I'm back to Moscow, excited about work, Xpro, my life overall and what's coming up ahead!

Still home

Today we had celebration of my Dad's birthday, he turned 55 years. My dad is tremendously kind and generous man, who achieved a lot in life, and still giving out a lot, has his own principles and values and has influenced my view on certain things many times.We had family and relatives gathered today, my grandmoms, aunts, uncles, cousin, sister, niece. Big, noisy, crazy family. Family which I love and admire. Family which supports and make me smile. Family which I always wanna be with.

with my parents

Few things to myself, so I don't forget about it:

1. Genes (of beauty and forever youth)

2. My parents are role models of love and relations.

3. I wanna have loving husband, three children and piano in the house.

4. Just leave and move forward, if it's not something you want and enjoy.

5. Be courageous and firm and your decisions.

6. Life is so diverse, and there are so many things out there!

I have 5 more days at home. Right now I don't wanna leave at all and get back to reality. But wanna stay here with warmth of house, smiles, sun and mountains :)

on Medeo