My learning

Today I got this question:

"What is your main learning during past 3 months?"

I answered:

- It's ok to be not ideal.

- It's ok to ask for help.

- It's wonderful to learn from others.

In AIESEC we often forget that we're human beings,but not "super cool i-can-do-everything, even not sleep&eat" creatures and need sometimes simple things, but not only results, performance and numbers to achieve.

Also I've heard today "Dust in the wind" song, which is stuck in my head now and reminded me of myself falling in love for the first time. I've also learnt in the past months that falling in love again and again is wonderful, and it doesn't always mean changing your object of love: people, job, interests, but discovering smth new in it. It feels good to be in love, random, not ideal, crazy and be YOURSELF!

New position+randomness

Good news are: we have MC VP ICX Non-Corporate - lovely and smart Alfiya, who I met in May and then got to know her better when she was FACI on the conference I chaired. Really happy for her and sure she'll bring great results to Russia with her passion and patience!

Don't know if it's bad or good news, but I'm almost officially MCVPTM and Elections:) As 4 round of MC applications will be opened this week. This time I'll use everything possible and impossible to get the best people, maybe smb know some rituals to attract it? :)

Conclusion: Be strategic. Build up Leadership pipeline. Make Recruitment strategic. And think 10 steps in advance so your future successors and successors after successors have the best people on positions.

Example: I think 80% of people we recruited in our term, when I was LCVPTM got leadership positions, and last year MC, NST, EB and this year MC, EB, NST consisted of those wonderful members who we were interviewing, guiding and supporting along their way. I was not super strategic that time, but the success was probably that we delivered right message to them and build up expectations that AIESEC is leadership org-n and this is why people come here by our promo, External events and whole LC culture. Simple, but work:)

and random thoughts of last days:

- TM+Com synergy rocks

- in love with numbers, graphs and statistics. If we could do the same in our life? Like graph of our mood, or statistics of emotions, how would it look like I wonder.

- Knowledge management is super cool thing, use it people!

- Personal Effectiveness is my strength

- I've got a secret and don't wanna share it :) Feels nice to have a secret only for Urself :)

- Don't like people who talk and do not ACT.

- How does it feel like not to be elected? :)

- Will miss my MC team, when term is over....a loooooot

- Check it out: N-AI-L-ya s-A-b-I-rova:) People can find signs everywhere, if they want:)

Don't worry, be happy :)

We don't like to worry, and don't like stress, being nervous, being impatient. And we get angry when people around worry too much about us, thinking "I'm not a child anymore, I can handle everything myself".

Parents are worrying about us, when we're late, sick, sad, don't write to them, what we gonna be and where, are we happy or no. Friends worry about our life, problems, ups and downs. Boyfriends/girlfriends worry about what's gonna be with us, our relations, our mood, our thoughts...

But isn't it wonderful to have person or people you worry about and who care about you? It means you're not alone anymore, you stretched yourself beyond your own world and selfishness

and let somebody in there. So before getting mad on your parents/friends/loved ones cuz they ask too many questions and worry about each detail: think about your reaction to it. Think that these are the people who don't ask anything back, but just want to know about you and be there to support and help. And don't be afraid to show your affection to them.

And that's the topic about loneliness...We sometimes sit alone and get to the point when wanna scream that nobody understands us and we're all alone in the world. I think it's our decision to feel lonely or no. As at that moment you can pick up the phone and call to somebody and will see that there are people out there who will listen, understand and worry about you:)

I'm not lonely, even when I'm alone. Be wise in making your choice:)

Done

Application sent and accepted, feel relieved, as all the other AI candidates, I guess:)

And all of a sudden feel back to reality, to my dear AIESEC Russia and work to do here! Tomorrow is deadline for MC applications, pls pls pls be elected ICX:) I want Manana to have the best team history ever had! And I wanna hug my team, and also "strange" guy who supported me so much, Lena who was always there filling in her application and Gasho with "NASA" thing:)

Whatever happens-happens, but I know that there are people around who I love and it's the most important thing in life!

Harmony

Music indeed plays an important role in my life, as can express feelings you can't put in words.

Last days were extremely stressful due to work overload, family problems, health issues. Today I took day off and was listening to Mozart almost all the day. So thank you, Amadeus Mozart, for bringing harmony back to me:)

On most of the photos I have, I'm with food or alcohol, or both. What could it mean?

Today is one of these days when I wanna be weak, helpless, capricious. Just scream, cry, complain. And to have smb who will listen, be patient, support and say to me: "It's gonna be alright. You're the best", or "I'll take care of you, don'worry" or some other phrases, and also hug me tight, make hot tea for me (better green one) and order me to go to sleep, as tomorrow is new day and it will all pass away...

But I'm alone with cold pizza and hot tea, which is black. Not going to sleep and saying all these phrases of motivation to myself in my head. And of course I'm strong overall, so this moment of weakness will be over...tomorrow.