LC visit

I'm in Chelyabinsk. Strange people, ambitious LC.

They're different and it's amazing about them.

Dinar is cooking dinners for me, it's snowing, I have amazing meetings with OCPs, EB current and elects. And wanna come back in May for Plan It :) Because loving them more and more...

Expectations

Why do people get in conflicts and disagreements, get angry on each other, no matter if it's work, personal life or friends? I thought today that it's cuz each one of us has certain expectations towards our team or particular person. We expect people around to act according to what's on our mind, often not telling it to them, but only blaming afterwards, if it's not done the way we were expecting. But is it possible not to have expectations towards smth? Or maybe key to find common solution is setting up expectations from the beginning? 

Another thing I noticed even in myself is that often we get trapped by expectations of other people toward us. My family is expecting my to finish with AIESEC this year, move to Almaty and start working, my AIESEC friends expect that one more year I'll be around and continue working in our organization. And you try to manage these expectations, but in the end somebody will stay dissapointed with decision you took. And I myself tend to get frustrated when something doesn't match the way I was expecting, even in small things. I like this saying: "If person doesn't love you the way you expect, it does not mean he doesn't love you at all.". So at least for myself I decided to be aware of this and differences with other people, not to get angry if smth not the way you want, but trying to understand other's thoughts and come to common solution.

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I'm sitting now at the Tunisian Airport, as our flight was cancelled and we're leaving one day later.
And I'm super inspired now and motivated as had conversation which stroke me and made me 100% sure of what I wanna do, it showed me why I was not upset at all when was not elected to AI, why I was meant to be on IPM and what will do next year and years after:)
I wanna make people experience what I experienced: world, the best people, challenges, searching and findings.
I wanna make a difference.
I wanna follow my values and bring it to the world.
I wanna AIESEC be organization how I see it: org-n which brings changes.

IPM was amazing, as every conference actually:) AI elections were tough, challenging, enjoyable, as all elections:) But the point is that I had self discovery, which never happened to me, I could face MYSELF and see who I am and what I stand for.
Right now first priority for me is AIESEC Russia, 2 months to finish our term on a high note and leave the best possible for the next team.
And for my passion and dream for the next year is to open AIESEC in new country, to give this opportunity to young people in the country to live this beatiful organization and to give opportunity to another young people to drive it and make contribution. I really mean it, and ready to turn my dream into action. Country which is on my mind now to do it is Uzbekistan. And I'm absolutely serious about it, as never in my life!
Oh, so many emotions, and thoughts, and ideas in my head right now! So will write when at home and have structure in my head:)
And one last thing: I don't know how to express grattitude to all the people who supported me throughout elections and after, I don't just appreciate it, but I'm so lucky to have these kind of people around. Thank you from all my heart!
But sometimes you need to turn to wrong direction in order to find the right one, which actually happened to me:)

Today

Last things to finish, pack and I'm ready to go...to Tunisia:)
Where will be with my wonderful russian delegation, friends who I missed so much, sun and elections, oh....elections. It seems to be so far for me now. Funny that we talk about future or past, but anyway feel only presence, and future or past is like movie which you watch, where you're hero, but it's like external view on yourself.
Ok, don't wanna continue writing my random thoughts:) Will better write from Tunisia which is coming up today.

Respect

One of the lessons I've learnt in AIESEC and in my family is - respect.

Respect is one of the values I try to follow, but it doesn't always work out, as it's difficult to always watch yourself and what you say. But at least I respect work of others, their opinion, their choice and do not judge it or react negatively. But observing people around unfortunately realize that it's not common for people, especially in Russia. Even respect for older people does not always work, at least in Moscow. It's seldom when in metro smb will give a place to an old woman, who hardly stands. Or when people listen to you attentively when U speak out. Or they respect your choice and do not judge it. For instance, I always get comments about me smoking and not even kind request not to do it, but strict orders not to smoke in front.

And it's also interconnected with tolerance. I noticed often people judge others, not looking at themselves and what they did.

I believe that life puts everything on its places, and as a bumerang everything returns to us. But one thing I know for sure, that will surround myself with people and will live in the place where there is respect for my choice and what I do.

NEC in Samara

Our last National Conference...Our legacy...And opportunity to see future leadership body of AIESEC in Russia.

Now I'm abosolutely calm for the next year and sure Russia will keep growing and will get even more ambitious.

From the other side it was conference where I was enjoying every second and following our adorable Chair's principles:

Name

Till didn't forget, decided to post, not sleeping anyway:) Many people asking about my name, what it means etc. So here it is:

"Nailya" from arabic means "Gift".

In spite of the fact that girls with this name are calm, they're tend to be often stressed. Don't like anger toward them from others. They're principled, proud and pushy. Have strong will. Can stand for themselves and others. Like to be in the center of attention.

Determined in study and work. Distrustful. Reasonable.

They hate liers and dissemblers. Like to dream. Have very good memory. Always glad to help friends, that's why often have lack of time for themselves and solving their problems. Accurate, taking care of themselves. Hard working and independent. Flexible and diplomatic in communication. Those, born in spring love children. Can become good wives.

Name Nailya is mentioned in the Koran.

Actually I also have heard somewhere that my name means "tender":) But I like "gift" interpretation more.

Ok, going back 2 work. Samara - on Sunday, my mam will be happy, she has spent there 5 years studying:)