Today

Last things to finish, pack and I'm ready to go...to Tunisia:)
Where will be with my wonderful russian delegation, friends who I missed so much, sun and elections, oh....elections. It seems to be so far for me now. Funny that we talk about future or past, but anyway feel only presence, and future or past is like movie which you watch, where you're hero, but it's like external view on yourself.
Ok, don't wanna continue writing my random thoughts:) Will better write from Tunisia which is coming up today.

Respect

One of the lessons I've learnt in AIESEC and in my family is - respect.

Respect is one of the values I try to follow, but it doesn't always work out, as it's difficult to always watch yourself and what you say. But at least I respect work of others, their opinion, their choice and do not judge it or react negatively. But observing people around unfortunately realize that it's not common for people, especially in Russia. Even respect for older people does not always work, at least in Moscow. It's seldom when in metro smb will give a place to an old woman, who hardly stands. Or when people listen to you attentively when U speak out. Or they respect your choice and do not judge it. For instance, I always get comments about me smoking and not even kind request not to do it, but strict orders not to smoke in front.

And it's also interconnected with tolerance. I noticed often people judge others, not looking at themselves and what they did.

I believe that life puts everything on its places, and as a bumerang everything returns to us. But one thing I know for sure, that will surround myself with people and will live in the place where there is respect for my choice and what I do.

NEC in Samara

Our last National Conference...Our legacy...And opportunity to see future leadership body of AIESEC in Russia.

Now I'm abosolutely calm for the next year and sure Russia will keep growing and will get even more ambitious.

From the other side it was conference where I was enjoying every second and following our adorable Chair's principles:

Name

Till didn't forget, decided to post, not sleeping anyway:) Many people asking about my name, what it means etc. So here it is:

"Nailya" from arabic means "Gift".

In spite of the fact that girls with this name are calm, they're tend to be often stressed. Don't like anger toward them from others. They're principled, proud and pushy. Have strong will. Can stand for themselves and others. Like to be in the center of attention.

Determined in study and work. Distrustful. Reasonable.

They hate liers and dissemblers. Like to dream. Have very good memory. Always glad to help friends, that's why often have lack of time for themselves and solving their problems. Accurate, taking care of themselves. Hard working and independent. Flexible and diplomatic in communication. Those, born in spring love children. Can become good wives.

Name Nailya is mentioned in the Koran.

Actually I also have heard somewhere that my name means "tender":) But I like "gift" interpretation more.

Ok, going back 2 work. Samara - on Sunday, my mam will be happy, she has spent there 5 years studying:)

My learning

Today I got this question:

"What is your main learning during past 3 months?"

I answered:

- It's ok to be not ideal.

- It's ok to ask for help.

- It's wonderful to learn from others.

In AIESEC we often forget that we're human beings,but not "super cool i-can-do-everything, even not sleep&eat" creatures and need sometimes simple things, but not only results, performance and numbers to achieve.

Also I've heard today "Dust in the wind" song, which is stuck in my head now and reminded me of myself falling in love for the first time. I've also learnt in the past months that falling in love again and again is wonderful, and it doesn't always mean changing your object of love: people, job, interests, but discovering smth new in it. It feels good to be in love, random, not ideal, crazy and be YOURSELF!

New position+randomness

Good news are: we have MC VP ICX Non-Corporate - lovely and smart Alfiya, who I met in May and then got to know her better when she was FACI on the conference I chaired. Really happy for her and sure she'll bring great results to Russia with her passion and patience!

Don't know if it's bad or good news, but I'm almost officially MCVPTM and Elections:) As 4 round of MC applications will be opened this week. This time I'll use everything possible and impossible to get the best people, maybe smb know some rituals to attract it? :)

Conclusion: Be strategic. Build up Leadership pipeline. Make Recruitment strategic. And think 10 steps in advance so your future successors and successors after successors have the best people on positions.

Example: I think 80% of people we recruited in our term, when I was LCVPTM got leadership positions, and last year MC, NST, EB and this year MC, EB, NST consisted of those wonderful members who we were interviewing, guiding and supporting along their way. I was not super strategic that time, but the success was probably that we delivered right message to them and build up expectations that AIESEC is leadership org-n and this is why people come here by our promo, External events and whole LC culture. Simple, but work:)

and random thoughts of last days:

- TM+Com synergy rocks

- in love with numbers, graphs and statistics. If we could do the same in our life? Like graph of our mood, or statistics of emotions, how would it look like I wonder.

- Knowledge management is super cool thing, use it people!

- Personal Effectiveness is my strength

- I've got a secret and don't wanna share it :) Feels nice to have a secret only for Urself :)

- Don't like people who talk and do not ACT.

- How does it feel like not to be elected? :)

- Will miss my MC team, when term is over....a loooooot

- Check it out: N-AI-L-ya s-A-b-I-rova:) People can find signs everywhere, if they want:)

Don't worry, be happy :)

We don't like to worry, and don't like stress, being nervous, being impatient. And we get angry when people around worry too much about us, thinking "I'm not a child anymore, I can handle everything myself".

Parents are worrying about us, when we're late, sick, sad, don't write to them, what we gonna be and where, are we happy or no. Friends worry about our life, problems, ups and downs. Boyfriends/girlfriends worry about what's gonna be with us, our relations, our mood, our thoughts...

But isn't it wonderful to have person or people you worry about and who care about you? It means you're not alone anymore, you stretched yourself beyond your own world and selfishness

and let somebody in there. So before getting mad on your parents/friends/loved ones cuz they ask too many questions and worry about each detail: think about your reaction to it. Think that these are the people who don't ask anything back, but just want to know about you and be there to support and help. And don't be afraid to show your affection to them.

And that's the topic about loneliness...We sometimes sit alone and get to the point when wanna scream that nobody understands us and we're all alone in the world. I think it's our decision to feel lonely or no. As at that moment you can pick up the phone and call to somebody and will see that there are people out there who will listen, understand and worry about you:)

I'm not lonely, even when I'm alone. Be wise in making your choice:)