On most of the photos I have, I'm with food or alcohol, or both. What could it mean?

Today is one of these days when I wanna be weak, helpless, capricious. Just scream, cry, complain. And to have smb who will listen, be patient, support and say to me: "It's gonna be alright. You're the best", or "I'll take care of you, don'worry" or some other phrases, and also hug me tight, make hot tea for me (better green one) and order me to go to sleep, as tomorrow is new day and it will all pass away...

But I'm alone with cold pizza and hot tea, which is black. Not going to sleep and saying all these phrases of motivation to myself in my head. And of course I'm strong overall, so this moment of weakness will be over...tomorrow.

Week end III

Too many posts this week end. The reason is that this week end I do not talk to people alive, but only virtually and not a lot. So need to express my feelings somehow and blog is the best place to do it.

And I don't like to complain, so it's better to complain here, scream here and go mad here.

It's Sunday morning (afternoon actually, but morning for me), I'm done with General Section and moving now to Specific Questions...and video, video today. I sometimes think who came up to these applications? Idea of application itself is good, but idea to have so many questions there doesn't appeal to me:) Anyway I still enjoy it, as probably it is this time when I can think only about me, my ideas and my vision, which does not happen so often.

And random thought: I listen to Michael Jackson and sad that he passed away, cuz he was indeed talented. He left his music to us, I will leave my application :) And also I will leave my future children to the world, at least couple of thousands changed for better lives, social entreprise, book and bright memories.

Back to work:)

Week end II

Guys, if U want to apply somewhere, do not hesitate - APPLY! As this process itself, is a huge self discovery. As even when filling in application you reflect upon your previous years, what was challenging, what U've learnt, what is YOUR experience...And it brings back so many memories, and you laugh and cry at the same time. Laugh cuz it was beatiful, cry cuz you can't go back: can't go back to your LC where everything started with interns, parties, problems, people, dreams, achievements, celebrations...Can't go back to internship with again parties, problems, people, dreams, challenges, salsa, ocean...Can't go back to conferences with the same things...And you realize that all these small things, which seemed to be so unimportant that time, brought you here, where you are now.

And you also think about your future: what is important for me, what do I stand for, what do I want to bring, who is important for me, who I can stand for, who I want to bring happiness to?

Life is wonderful:) IT IS.

Week end

Hello week end, good bye rest!

Nailya, concentrate on:

- AI application

- AI application

- AI application

It must be done by Monday morning!

Popularity issue

I have many friends - girls. Of course I have guys as friends too, but here wanna talk about my girls-friends. Most of them are very pretty, smart, communicative, interesting, found themselves in life in means of career and many other positive features. But...nevertheless many are still single. I talked and talk to them, and 90% of them wanna have relations, loving boyfriend, serenades under the moon and other romantic stuff which comes along with having a boyfriend or at least guys who'll fall on them. They're searching, flirting, dressing up nice and putting on make up, but it doesn't help. They don't become popular. So recently I started asking my friends-boys why some girls are popular and always surrounded with lots of attention and others (who are not worser, but sometimes even better than the popular ones) - not. Relying on man's logic and structure, hoped to hear clear explanation which will solve the problem of loneliness once and forever. So these are the answers I got:

-girl should have "something" in her (what does "something" means nobody can explain)

-girl must be charismatic (lots of my single beauties are very charismatic though)

-girl gotta be open and sincere

-girl gotta have a "secret" (and at the same time to be open and sincere, quite tough)

-pretty or cute (doesn't help - checked)

So what's the secret of popularity? Some special energy person have or fluids he/she spreads around? Still have no clue. Probably problem is in guys who turn off the logic when selecting girls, and looking not at the right ones:) Who knows...If smb knows the secret, pls let me know and you'll have thousands of grateful people around. Or maybe it's just not the time for my friends and life is preparing them for the one and only. Hope this one is true for all of us and someday we will here this song being sung for us-beautiful and smart ladies:):

I started filling in AI application, and realized that filling in AI application! OMG! 3,5 years ago when I joined AIESEC I even could not think about it, that someday I'll be applying for AIESEC International...And now I am. AIESEC is truly beatiful organization, which make you dream big and act big, which make you not to be afraid of what you want and do it. Ok, gotta go and continue working on the app:) So wish me good luck!

P.S. I'm back to Moscow, excited about work, Xpro, my life overall and what's coming up ahead!